Time pass and all for Eternity Part 1

nah… just leave the title aside… cause i dont know wat i wan to crap at here….. and aside there… my current playlist song was evanescence - bring me to life….. so i heard their 1st lyrics was" how can u c it thru my eyes"…. so this explain the title meaning…..

Any how life been pass for 20 years….. last 4 days … were my birthday…. lol… my parents gave me ang pau…. which the contain were not yet reveal… cause i have no feeling to opening it…..

Been feel bad…. for life 20 years… wat have i done… wat have i aim and been achive… lol… been telling myself each time birthday…

On the age 1 to 10…

have very few memory on this… i just knew that i was born.. and live in quarters with my dad, mom and my brother…

and on about.. hmm.. let c.. about age 5 or 6 … i still remember i still loves playing with my childhood fren.. Sanja Nitrat… he was a Thai guy… but i NEVER KNEW that until i was age 10…haha… cause he speaks hokkien with me everyday thru 10 years…. i still remember.. when i was asking my parents..

"why sanja daddy dont know how to speak hokkien? why sanja knew how to speak Thai… why this and why that….".. my parents laugh hard on me….

" haha.. eddy…. Sanja was a thai guy"….. i was .. OMG.. as if the world were running out of joke……

"but he knew how to speak hokkien…. if thai, he not suppose to know how to speak!"

"eddy.. how come u knew how to speak malay?"… ok .. dad, mom.. u win! my mind was a simple as that ..on that age… but quite a sturborn person ….

oh yea… to u ppl if u were reading…. Eddy is my nick were given and i use it for my parents and family…. and the close one… well.. my childhood fren.. of course not only him.. there were few others like girl-girl, ting ting…. and lots more… forget…. pai seh

well… on the age 6 … i was threw in a kindergarden in Pandamaran… haha… that time.. i learn a lot of things that didnt taught in house….haha… for example

1. bad language - hmm.. quite surpirse when think back.. how come my cute frens were all familiar with this words… i have to even ask them…. what does those words means… haha freaking innocent … i was… really…!

2. Gangs - if u dont believe it.. i cant do anything… but it really happens! for age 6, I were "taught" in kindergarden about The Strongest Rules….haha…. chinese race was the majority in the kindergarden…. and indian was the minority…. no malay race in the school… since it was under church care… and for the gang …. most of our population were divided in 4 gangs…. 2 chinese 1 indian and 1 more was neutral team…. guess wat…. all the 4 gang… i once join before…. haha… yeap… can said.. pengecut or pengkhianat…. but my motive on that time was… joining who was right… seems wierd .. but we fight not for territory but fought for

- Who is the strongest?

- Dont said i love that girl/boy

haha…. and the teacher always headache…. always punish us… by using the 30cm ruler and knock our hands…. i still remember… i was the one who introduce "weapons" in to gengs.. cause that time my gang fought with the indians… and i was losing….so i have no choice… take out my belt…. i whip all person in my way….haha… end up been "charge" by one of the "victim".. so the teacher hit my hand by ruler… althought it was freaking hard pain… i still act cool there… and tell the victim.. "It wasnt pain at all *smile*" .. LOL… that victim..tarak puas hati… complain… and i kena again… =.="

3. Respect - WOW… not only for strong…. but for the person who always get chinese, maths, malay and english 100%…. lol..

4. Betray, Teamwork and Backstab - lol… all this 3… yes yes… i already did it during kindergarden… geez… must be watching too much movies and try to adapt on it….haha… imagine i was shouting "teamwork", "nationalism" and "friendship" to unite the supporters and the leaders…. and in same time BACKSTAB and then BETRAY the one who look down on me….

geez… i was already like this ..during age 6… =.="… no wonder y my parents always said me licik, swindler, pembohong.. and so so on…. OF COURSE .. my parents do know i fought .. but get in thier trap =.="

"Eh eddy.. i heard u fought in school…. y? is the person distur u or u bully ppl?"

"Eh.. of course i not that kind bully person…. i just fight…fight… for my sake of my fren"

"Oh icic… well fight for frens are good .. *dad laughing*"

OBVIOUSLY was a setting trap.. but that time 6 years old… shit in pants 3 times in school…. how la i knew that was a trap …

"YEA YEA! that person lo… he start 1st… who ask his mouth so itchy… saying my fren loves that girl… so he deserves it !… oh yea… i bit that guy with all my mighty…. he cry asking teachers help pulak… hope it will be good lesson for him…*smiles*"

"Oh icic… so his mouth icthy …. *my dad changed,smilling to angry* then y ur hand so icthy? go beat ppl… u think u are wat? hero? boss? go stand outside house for the rest of ur life…. and u deservers it! dont cry and ask ur brother help…. THIS will be a good lesson for u!"

LOL… i taste my own words back…. any how ….i lost all my kindergarden frens… miss them…. wan to meet them back and wanna thank them for the memory….

haha… gonna continue it tonight…

Written at July 19th, 2007 in Friendster's Blog